| 7am now... just got back... tired~~~
went clubbing last night, or i meant, this morning~~~ the one that we
went today was getto though =( should have gone to a better one... so
many blacks around... not like i'm racsim... but blacks in getto place
@_@ ppl kept touching me and that made me so sick/angry >=(
ah... why am i posting new entry instead of sleeping... out of my mind~~~
maybe i should start updating my xanga more often~~~
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| 2:47 pm in JP~~~
Gonna wait for 9 more hours...
The last 9 hours~~~
And either way I'll be happy again =)
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| JP's been great. Ahhhh, I miss this place so much!! Been so busy
recently just hanging out with ppl and visiting places. Yesterday was
the first day in 2 weeks that I actually got 2 hours free to take a nap
after class...
Anyway, still can't post any pics yet. Ya for my mom for bringing me
the camera and the charger, however, left the USB cable home ^^"
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| Thanks to all of you for showing your care while I needed someone by my side; I felt loved =P
I am doing a lot better now, though the situation is still in a chaotic status; I am not very sure how things will go. But at least I`ve recieved msg from him. Now I feel a lot more peaceful and I guess... I`ll just wait for his final decision. |
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| I gave up... on the very last hope that he would give me a call...
I thought he didn't have internet access... so he couldn't email me; I
thought he missed me, but he couldn't find me because he didn't have my
number; I even started beliving that maybe something miserable happened, and
was worried about him.
But then I found out... He could get online to chat, but couldn't email me;
A friend delivered him my number, he said, "maybe I'll call her during
the weekend"; Nothing happened to him, he just returned from a vacation with his cousins.
I don't know how it can be possible for me to find him more excuses for
being this indifferent. I don't know why I am still so depressed about
this shit, even though he doesn't seem to care even a bit. I don't know why I
keep lying to myself that there is still ways to save the relationship.
But none of the I-don't-know's can be more miserable then that I don't
know how to stop thinking about him.
I had omelett rice for dinner, then I recalled the time when we made it
together in his apartment; My jp teacher recommended us a good macha
resturant, and I thought that if he was around, he really would love to
go; I saw a bath pillow, I wanted to get it for him since he loves
taking baths. He's in every part of my life and I don't know how to
forget about any of these?
Time will heal everything, as what everyone says. Can time just flow a bit faster then?
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